Thursday, March 22, 2012

My Mama's Passing

I am having to lean harder on Jesus this very moment than I ever have in my entire life.

Yesterday afternoon I received a phone call from my dad just shortly after he had left my house.  When he got home he found my mom dead.

Just typing those words seems so surreal.  I keep thinking I am living in a nightmare and at any moment I am going to wake up.

How can she be gone?  When I talked to her on Tuesday afternoon her last words to me were, "I'll talk to you tomorrow."

Surely, I am going to wake up out of this nightmare and she's going to call me today.

We aren't really sure what happened.  We've been told she probably either had a heart attack or a stroke.  She had told my dad the day before she felt like her blood pressure was up.  She had complained of her ear hurting and then she would say, "I just hurt all over."

How can this be happening?  How can this be real?

I keep telling myself Jesus is the same at this very moment as He was on Tuesday afternoon when she called me.

We are all devastated, but seeing my girls hurting is almost more than my heart can bare.  They love her so much, and she also loved them.  Yet even in their hurt, they are also leaning hard on Jesus.

He is our only comfort at this time.  We've had so many people ask us how they can help.  So many have told us they are praying for us.

That is nothing more than Jesus' love for us in action.  I believe that with everything within me.

He is covering us with His love.

My Jesus is the same today as He was just moments before my dad called.

Just this past Saturday I gathered with friends ... my covenant family ... to celebrate new life.  We celebrated a new birth, and births yet to come.  I cuddled with my friend's baby who is just a couple of months old.

This Saturday we will be laying my mom to rest.

My Jesus is the same today as He was Saturday when we were rejoicing the newness of life, and He will be the same in the hours, days, months to come as we mourn my mom's death.

I ask you pray for my dad, my brothers and I as we go later this morning to make funeral arrangements.  I ask that you pray for my mom's 8 broken hearthearted grandchildren.  Please pray for her brothers and sisters.  They've already experienced the loss of a brother just 2 1/2 years ago.

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever."  ~ Hebrews 13:8

I love you, Mama.


  1. Robin, I am so so sorry to hear about your mom! It's a terrible loss. I will be praying for you and your sweet family. Times like this remind me of the words of Carrie Ten Boom - "There is no hole so deep, that He is not deeper still". May our Comforter bring you the peace that passes understanding. Love you, Denise

  2. I am so glad and thankful that you have shared your heart and worshiped so freely here at this early place of grief. Praying without ceasing that you will continue to grieve with much honesty before your Lord, who has won your trust. He will never leave you nor forsake you. We are here to walk this hard path with you. Love you, with all my heart.


  3. Oh Robin! My heart is aching for you. What a loss! Praying for you, my sister.

  4. Robin, You are in my thoughts and prayers. Praying for your family as well. I am so glad that we have a God that is with us always. Know that you are not alone during this time. I love you and your family dearly.

  5. Thank you for allowing us to share in both your grief and your praise. "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." ~ Hebrews 13:8---Amen!

    1. These are precious words, Robin. I'm so sorry to learn of your Mother's passing. It's so important that we all remember the scripture you have posted. Jesus is the same no matter what. I know the depth of your hurt, from experience, and I can see your faith will carry you through this valley of sadness. God bless you and I pray you will feel the love of your friends lifting you up for strength and healing.

  6. Robin, I do not know you and truthfully have no idea how God blessed me by allowing me to stumble onto yor blog. I will pray for you and your family. May God,s comfort surround you. Linda in Texas