Being Exhausted is Worth the Fun

I am so tired this morning!!  I would still be in the bed if getting my family up for school wasn't necessary.  Yesterday was a fun day, but I way over did it.  I'm seriously paying for it this morning.  I'm really doubting if bible study this morning is a wise idea.  My legs are weak and heavy and I'm in a lot of pain.  Falling terrifies me ever since Dr. Gaw told me if I fell and broke a leg or a hip I may never walk again.  In the time it would take for either of them to heal, my muscles would atrophy too much.  That was what pushed me to start using the rolling walker.  I mainly just use it at church because the hallways are so long, and it helps to have the seat when my legs get shaky.  I don't go anywhere else that much.  If I do go to the grocery store, I have the buggy to hold on to.  If I go out to eat I just hold on to someone's arm.  Mainly I just go to church activities and to doctor visits... oh, and bunco once a month. : )  I'm already like a 90 year old woman.  I even have a medicare card.  It is embarrassing to use the walker at 38, but if using it keeps me walking I will swallow my pride.  It's one of those walkers that is complete with hand breaks, a seat and a basket.  It's lovely (I say that with much sarcasm).  Right now it's in the back of the van, and I don't want to ask Nathan to bring it in.  I'll take a picture of it later and post it.  Then you can get a visual.

Well, that was a bunny trail...

I've spent the last few weeks having a major pity party... complete with tons of kleenex and gofer wood to start building an ark because I have cried so much and was starting a flood in my house.  I decided on Sunday night I was going to try really hard to focus on the positive this week.  I'll admit it so hard though.  Pain, sadness, frustration, etc. can overtake any positive emotion you can have.  However, I am determined to give it my best shot.  So...

Last week my sweet friend Elizabeth asked me if I wanted to go lunch this week.  She told me a few weeks ago she knew Connie's move was hard on me.  She understands how close we are.  I love spending time with her.  She is our pastor's wife, and instead of being so rigid and trying to be so perfect, she's honest about her own struggles and shortcomings.  She's like your best girlfriend.  That's one of the million things that caused me to love Connie so much.  When we first came to Grace, she was our pastor's wife.  She too is very honest about her struggles and shortcomings.  Caleb and Elizabeth came when Joey took a position within the Presbytery with the youth.  Connie and Elizabeth are different and yet they are so alike.

LOVE them both!!

Mercy, I'm going down another bunny trail.

Anyway, I've been so excited about our plans to do lunch.  Sunday she asked me if I wanted to invite a couple more friends she knew I was close too.  Cheryl could come but Mary was busy.  So Cheryl picked me up, and we met up with Elizabeth at my favorite local Mexican restaurant.  When we got there she told us she invited one of our other friends, Deborah.  She's had a rough time lately too and needed some girl time.  I was so excited she came!!  I love her so much.  She's like my little sister and spending time with her is always so fun!  We had the best time.  We talked non-stop but the time went so fast... too fast actually.

This is Deborah, with her twins Ty and Micah, Cheryl and me.  Elizabeth was taking the picture.  I don't know why we didn't just ask someone to take one of all of us together.

This is Elizabeth with Cheryl and me.  Deborah took this picture.

Deborah, Ty and Micah.  There was a baseball game on the TV up above us.  They love ball!

It was so good to be together!  I LOVE spending time with friends!!  I was sooo worn out though and had to come home and take a nap.  We had Grace group last night.  I took my camera with me but forgot to take any pictures.  I was so tired I could hardly think straight.  I'll take some next time.  We had to leave early because Sara had a football scrimmage last night and we had to get her picked up.  The game was over before Grace group ended.  No, she doesn't play.  She's a football manager.  I rode with Nathan to pick her up, and when we finally got home last night I collapsed.  I way over did yesterday.  Last was also bunco night, but I had to miss because we had Grace group.  So here I am today exhausted and trying to figure out if it's wise to go to bible study this morning.  It wears me completely out to try and get out of the house, but I would much rather have a few hours of fun with friends and be completely exhausted for days, rather than sit at home for weeks at a time.  It can be a high price to pay, but it is absolutely worth it!